Ems / 22 / female / HKI, FIN. I’m a graphic designer/ fangirl/ Pokémon trainer/ aquarius/ comic book and sci-fi geek/ hardcore sherlockian/ a blogger when I feel like it/ painter/ punk rocker/ writer. Fiction is my life. This tumblog is dedicated mainly to my fangirl-ish ways. Sidebar pic made by her.
Anonymous asked:
NO. stop those words right now my lady! i am not kidding here, shut up about someone killing you. you are not done, you are still very much alive and i hope you'll be that a long time after this specific night! i beg of you, go to sleep - or even try? - when you woke up tomorrow you'll feel much better. (even though hangover can be fucking bad) but please, don't hurt youself. with love, anon.
I most likely will not hurt myself. I promised someone I wouldn’t, even though he probably doesn’t really care anymore. I haven’t hurt myself in three months. Thank you for your concern, I really do appreciate it, I really do. Tomorrow also most likely won’t be any better than today, no matter how drunk I am right now. It just never is. I try not to give up, though.
I really have no words for what’s going through my head. I do not want to die, I just want to feel like I’m living. Like I’m alive, you know, and right now, I haven’t felt like I’ve been alive in a long time.
But thank you, I love you, whoever you are. Don’t worry too much about me, okay? I’m not planning on going anywhere, no matter how much I might feel like it.
